Ebb and Flow
I have found myself in the ‘ebb” since October 2023.
I have found myself in the ‘ebb” since October 2023. Here it is, May 2024, and the ‘flow’ is finally coming in. The tide is turning. That’s the thing with the ebb, you never know how long it will last. And you can’t predict what it will teach you. But, I am learning to trust that it is guaranteed to shift, the flow will come.
This afternoon I am writing from a patio outside a bnb in the countryside of northern coastal Spain. I’ve been on this journey for 6 days of 20, with my love. El Camino. I never knew of this until he booked our trip and as I travel I am discovering the magic.
In the last year, all of my client work started to dry up, or fall apart. All at once. I got sued by a client for the first time ever. One new client had a sudden change of heart. I also saw the writing on the wall of my fulltime job. They weren’t approving the 2024 budget or giving me any approval to speak of. It felt like the end was looming.
I began job hunting again in earnest. Hopeful to find something before it all dried up. I applied, got referrals, did everything I could with gusto. 3 months of that effort led to nothing. And then on a random Tuesday in February, I got let go.
There was no explanation. But I know why. My time was up. And on a faith level, I was trying to trust that this meant new opportunities were coming towards me. What was the lesson, I asked God? Was I supposed to play my cards differently?